Moved!

Yes, I have officially moved to another blogger site.

Here is the link. Follow my writings and photos there ;)

https://msiyarai.wordpress.com/

Young Adult Issues

I have been trying to redesign this blog for a reason that I can't explain. Okay, I am have mentioned in my previous post how I felt and observed in some changes that I have noticed in myself. But why is it that I still feel like I am still the same crazy, unpredictable, and moody Rai? WTH.

I am certain now how I want this blog to go. Oh by the way, I recently created another Instagram profile. I did create a profile 7 months ago I guess but deleted it a few months later for some reasons that I couldn't remember.

But I want a plain and simple black background color template but I couldn't find any that could satisfy my senses.

My sister-in-law sent me a message in Viber earlier this morning inviting me for a breakfast date tomorrow with her and my brother. I was thinking of browsing the menu now so I will know which to order. I don't have that much money any more. I went for vacation so only a few days were paid for the salary of April. I brought home the rest of the money. I had to pay my phone line, my transport, buy groceries, and go to the salon at least for a mani-pedi. I couldn't even afford sending my parents money back home. I had to explain myself this time. I might just send it for the next salary to come.

I have been thinking lately whether to get that loan from my bank or not. I had a session with my brother and sister-in-law's agent two months ago on the consequences, how to pay it, how interests work, how many months will my salary suffer from the deductions, and the worry of not being able to complete the payment if in case I get a job some place else. Well, I seriously don't know where to put the money that I'll get for the loan. I am very careful in choosing whether to get an investment or to use it in buying my own condo or home in Baguio. The loan comes with a credit card which I can use for hotel bookings (This is the main reason why I wanted to get the loan). I can sacrifice at least PhP 6,000 deduction every month for a year but won't be able to save. I might only be able to save the money that I will be able to get for the loan. When I went home for vacation, I made sure that I had the proper documentation for PAG-IBIG and SSS and update them withing this year. Ugh, adult duties. I seriously don't want to deal with these things but I have to, for my future.

Just a few frustrations that are supposed to be done by now.

Still trying to figure out how to play this game called life.

Sincerely,
Rai

GIF source: https://kimnarag.wordpress.com/quotes-3/life-quotes/

Love's Never too Late

The poems I have made for you often follows a tragedy
And the memories we shared after all these years slowly wants to break free
I wanted to let it go and break free from all your agonies
But what more is there to live when all I will ever have are your memories, our memories

The songs you've dedicated for me always make the pain change to joy
And the memories we made after all these years are the memories you're starting to forget and destroy
I wanted to let you go and break free from all the reasons why I'm still here
But what more is there to love when I all I will ever be is you far from being near

The enchantments of every kiss and embrace became so much deeper
And the photographs left unseen made me bury my pride and my dignity lower
I wanted to let you go and break free from all these infinite and undecided lies
But what more is left of me when all I ever wanted was your presence near me away from all the memories of yesteryear's calls.

The love that I have for you all these years made me go
And might as well let go of unnecessary memories trapped in me.
The love you made me feel made me do crimes I never even dared to commit in my early years of being alive
But your love is but one crime I love to do over and over again.

The person you see now might be different from the lonesome girl you met three years ago
But that's only because you lit the spark of happiness left in me and set it ablaze over and over again.

Never mistaken my cries for weakness
Never mistaken my love for arrogance
Never mistaken me for who I am
and never ever mistaken my love for lust.

Love's never too late, for you and me.